



Before you venture in, I just want you to know that, despite the URL, this is NOT a blog, its just a place where I dump my random unorganized thoughts :3 (Mild swearing may occur)
I just want to feel like I have value. I just want to feel like I'm worth something.
I've realized that I crave attention. I crave it so much its not even funny. From my parents, from friends, from random ass people online. Ill check my instagram over and over and over again just praying that one notification shows up, that someone interacted with me in some way. I dont know why.
I feel so pathetic, all I do now is just sit in my room, send everyone I know a message and call every gc im in, and just sit here until someone responds, and sometimes noone does. I feel like people hate me.
Hello Arthur.
Deleting a few old thoughts because I said so and this is not a democracy 🥰
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!
Getting terrible razor burn cuz im shaving every day CUZ I HATE BODY HAIR RAAHAHEFADF
Finding myself staring at the one picture of myself that isn't terrible and where I actually dont hate how I look with every fiber of my being :,)
Wouldn't it be like really cool if I could just wake up tomorrow as a girl and noone would realize anything had changed except some of my closest friends, and I'd either tell them or make them think they're hallucinating (Best way to transition fr)